January 2011
Day 27
A problem that I have had…
Well this is delightfully vague. Like all of these prompts I suppose…Hm. So I suppose the biggest problem in my life recently has been my desire to not eat/my self image. I really despise the way I look and in order to fix the way I look, I have at various points in the last couple of years stopped eating. Most people view this as a problem.
I’m less...
Day 26
What Kind of Person Attracts Me
I think this is a somewhat dangerous question. I hate creating a persona of the ideal boyfriend, or saying what my “type” is, because inevitably the people I end up really caring about are not of that type. Because human beings will never be an ideal or a type that you create in your mind, they will be something a whole lot more complex that perhaps...
Day 25 continued!
In my previous really ranty long post about someone I find fascinating I kind of forgot the person I find most fascinating in the world…and that’s my boyfriend. Yes, I know I talk too much about him, but how would I be able to spend like…3 hours a day with the guy if I didn’t find him TOTALLY FASCINATING? I 100% love the way his brain works. I love that he has ADHD. I know...
Day 25
Someone who fascinates me and why…
Oh wowzerz this one is going to be hard for a couple of reasons. First because I CANNOT decide who I want to write about…I am fascinated by pretty much everyone, but some of my bigger fascinations are Nietszche, Kant, Freud, Jesus, Sarah Palin, Lady Gaga, all my ex boyfriends, Spike from Buffy, Sylvia Plath, Anne Sexton, Neil Gaimon, Professor...
This is my anxious face
So I think I’m having my worst end of semester freakout ever…I don’t think I did at all well in my class, and I really sort of need to, and there’s just this atmosphere of anxiety hanging all over me, which is really unpleasant. It’s one of those feelings where you can’t entirely tell WHY you’re anxious, but you can’t get rid of it. There seem to...
Stephen Asma says...
A lot of online feedback is remarkably angry, hostile, and generally melodramatic. Every time I write an online piece I get an army of people calling me a “moron,” or telling me I’m too smart for my own good, or I’m too stupid for my own good. People vent spleen and project all kinds of things onto the article and the writer. I find all this amusing and don’t take...
OH MY GOD I WANT THIS SO FUCKING BAD →
Day 24
My Favorite Movie and What It’s About
So I don’t really have a favorite movie…for a long time there it was Pirates of the Caribbean. Unoriginal, I know, but I’ve never been a huge movie buff. I enjoy them, but I just don’t get into them like a lot of people I know. I’ve never squee-ed to know that an actor I like is in an exciting movie. I actually really...
David Foster Wallace is quite smart
Transcription of the 2005 Kenyon Commencement Address - May 21, 2005
(If anybody feels like perspiring [cough], I’d advise you to go ahead, because I’m sure going to. In fact I’m gonna [mumbles while pulling up his gown and taking out a handkerchief from his pocket].) Greetings [“parents”?] and congratulations to Kenyon’s graduating class of 2005. There are...
Comedy
I am entirely intrigued by comedy and its place as a social commentator. I really love George Carlin, Lenny Bruce and that crowd, the group of people that are cynical, sarcastic and like to make scathing commentary on life and society and other nice things like that. People who have a tendency to force social change through their comedy.
But I wonder why the only place we can really, honestly...
Day 22
How I Have Changed in the Last 2 Years
I think the better question is how haven’t I changed in the last two years? I graduated from high school, became extremely unhappy with education and academia, lost a boyfriend, got a boyfriend, got extremely unhappy and developed an eating disorder and am now starting to get over said depression and eating disorder. I stopped caring about a lot of...
I wish people would understand...
16960) But I don’t want to lose weight the healthy way can’t you see? I want to look as broken and fragile and weak as I really feel. I want my sick body to resemble my broken soul. I’m not mentally well, don’t you know?
Day 21
One of my favorite shows:
Well right now The Big Bang Theory, which I really should be watching while curled up with my boyfriend in bed instead of sitting on the one couch in his apartment that gets internet so I can email my professor and my boss to let them know I’m sick and won’t be leaving his apartment today because standing up makes me feel nauseous and dizzy.
But Big Bang...
Day 20
Do I think education is important?
I am very much on the fence about this question. I very strongly believe in the importance of thinking, learning how to think, and knowing things, although if you don’t know things then at the very least knowing how to find them out. Whether this corresponds with what is known as “education” today is a different manner. A part of me says that...
Day 19
Disrespecting Your Parents…
I generally think it shouldn’t happen. But that’s mostly because I have a fucking wonderful relationship with my parents who both deserve my respect more than any other two people I know. My parents were the kind of parents who explained things to me instead of simply laying down rules, so we rarely disagreed on rules and so on because i understood...
Day 18
My Beliefs…
Well damn howdy this is vague. My beliefs in regards to what? Beauty? Ethics? God? Love? Sex? Myself? Other people? Politics? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS TALKING ABOUT?!?!?!
I suppose to sum up, I am pretty laid back in my beliefs about other people. I pretty much think other people are awesome, and should remain that way (e.g. beauty is more about confidence/whatever cheesy...
Day 17
Highs and Lows of the Past Year
Aaah, back to the semi-painful topics. I’m gonna start with lows. There have been a lot of them. And they’ve been pretty damn low too. I would say the first low was coming back to St. Olaf after being in San Jose. Summer school sucked, I had no friends, I was lonely and bored and unhappy. And when I realized I wanted to hurt myself or die…that was...
Day 16
My views on mainstream music:
Hm. I suppose I don’t really have “views” as far as mainstream music is concerned. For the most part my opinion on music is that if I like how it sounds I’m going to listen to it. That means I listen to some smaller indie bands, some swing, some classical, soundtracks, pop, classic rock…I’m hardly going to judge an artist because...
the art of living crazy: Why your super ironic... →
newwavefeminism:
bitemebeautiful:
This rant, although long overdue, has been prompted by a personal situation. Recently, I posted a political status on facebook. For no apparent reason, a boy I know decided to comment with “i really dont like opinionated women and feel they should go…
100% exactly my feelings…
Why do we keep ignoring this?
We pay attention when an attempt succeeds, but forget that there have been dozens of others…let’s pay more attention to the violence in our own country instead of bombing people halfway across the world, maybe yeah? It just pisses me off, because all of these are politically motivated violent acts, for the most part coming from the far right, and NO ONE is willing to admit that there...
Day 15
My Favorite Tumblrs:
Umm….I don’t really have any. I mean I really love sexchanges, but she doesn’t post a whole lot. future-world-overlord is pretty bomb. Other than that…not much of anything. I just follow a bit of this and a bit of that.
Day 14
My Earliest Memory
This one’s actually pretty easy! My earliest memory is from preschool when we had one day towards the end of the year where we got to move up to the next “grade” for the day just to see what it was like. I remember when I was just set to move up to kindergarten, we got to go back to the youngest kids’ room for a day. I wanted to play with the little bike...
Day 13
Somewhere I’d like to move or visit:
To be honest, ANYWHERE. I want to travel like nobody’s business. I’m really interested in joining the Peace Corps, or something similar, so I’d like to travel to someplace with less infastructure and organization than we have here. I would love to go to Southeast Asia. I want to visit England and Ireland. And I’d love to visit...
Day 12
Bullet your whole day. I’m assuming this means bullet point? Why can’t tumblr memes be more specific? Ok, well so far today I’ve gotten out of bed, walked downstairs, called the telecomm office and sat on the couch reading at work, and I’ve been awake for a grand total of less than an hour, so let’s use yesterday for this.
Woke up @3:30AM
Worked until 8ish, during...
vagabondways-deactivated2011072 asked: Your post on eating disorders and feminism just got me wondering what you thought of other kinds of self-image issues, specifically those that are normally seen as "unhealthy", such as Body Integrity Identity Disorder. Whether it's better to "treat" such individuals, or let them embrace whatever ideal they have for themselves and the like.
vagabondways-deactivated2011072 asked: Your post on eating disorders and feminism just got me wondering what you thought of other kinds of self-image issues, specifically those that are normally seen as "unhealthy", such as Body Integrity Identity Disorder. Whether it's better to "treat" such individuals, or let them embrace whatever ideal they have for themselves and the like.
Day 11
Put ye olde iPod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs. Well my iPod is dead and lacking in the vast majority of my music, so we’re using iTunes instead.
New Soul by Yael Naim (which is probably my favorite song in the world right now and this is potentially a screwed up “random” since it might have been highlighted when I pushed play. Woops)
Suicide Life by Eels
Some Other...
Eating disorders and feminism
So this might seem like a weird connection to make…but I think that eating disorders can actually be a very strong sentiment of feminism.
Now before everyone looks at me and goes “you’re fucking crazy! It’s changing your body for the likes and dislikes of MAN and SOCIETY”, let me explain.
Not everyone’s eating disorder is about looking good for guys. In fact...
Johann Hari on Kenneth Tong. It makes my soul die.... →
The Story of the Week by Joshua Mehigan
xperience was nothing that day. That day was Sunday. It was impossible to transcend the Western Tradition of Sunday. But he did not demand a better world. This he left to the moon, the moon’s day, Monday. Saturday he was maudlin, and may have been in love. Friday he got phone calls, but wasn’t there to answer. Wherever he was he was not falling in love. Thursday was bunk. The sack of...
Day 10
Discuss your first love and first kiss
Hm. So these all appear to be really hard questions, because this is a bitch of a question. I’m gonna start with first kiss since it’s slightly easier and completely unrelated to first love. I don’t actually remember my first kiss. Yeah, I know that’s kinda weird. But I think I blocked it from my memory. I know who it was with and...
Body Mods...
So I just watched a video where a girl tried to defend all forms of drastic body modification. She suggested that anything a person does to their body (wearing clothes to gauged ears to plastic surgery) was equivalent in that it was a choice someone made about how to change their appearance, and thus no one who made body mods should be judged for them and they should be allowed to live their lives...
Day 9
How I Hope My Future Will be Like
Well first of all the grammar of this title is just painful to read, but maybe it’s just me. Also, I feel like we already covered this in the “where do you want to be in 10 year” but again, maybe that was supposed to be literal physical location. And I suppose this is more open ended.
I think the most important thing I want included in my...
Day 8
A Moment I Felt Most Satisfied with My Life
This is a rather difficult post for me. I’m naturally inclined to look at a time I was with Kevin, but a.I think you’re all getting sick of hearing about that and b.I feel that there should be something more satisfying in my life than a man. And I suppose this can stretch back as far as I can remember, so I could always go back to high...
Reblog if you’d rather be cuddling now.
Day 7
Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality
Let me preface this by saying that I think zodiac signs are complete BS, although I do find them kind of amusing sometimes. In the same way that people who still believe in Santa Claus as adults are amusing. So…this is all joking.
Anyway. I’m a libra. I’m supposed to be
Diplomaitic and urbane,
Romantic and...
Day 6
30 Interesting Facts About Me
Actually I can’t promise interesting…30 facts about me.
1.I am legally blind in my right eye due to a birth defect called a morning glory anomaly. I don’t gots no optic nerve bitches!
2.I really love Immanuel Kant.
3.I will never be skinny enough for myself.
4.I think swing dancing is the single greatest activity in all of the universe, except...
Day 5
A Time I Thought About Ending My Life-
I’m not entirely sure I’m comfortable just spewing this out into internet oblivion. I’ve never actively wanted to kill myself. Whenever there have been thoughts that involve ways, or methods, or hatred for my body or the desire to do violence to myself, they aren’t about ending anything, they’re about destroying the body that I...
Day 4
My views on religion…
Alright…it’s 5:00 in the morning. This is a topic I could rant about for hours. Let’s see if anything even remotely resembling coherence appears now.
To begin with, I’m going to distinguish between spirituality and religion. Sounds a little New Age-y, yes, but in my mind spirituality is personal while religion is organized and communal. That is...
Day 3
My opinion on drugs and alcohol-
For the most part I’m of the opinion that people can do what they want. If someone really feels the need to drink or get high, whatever. It’s totally up to them. People can live their lives as they feel.
That said, I think both of them are really dumb ideas. My boyfriend used to be an alcoholic and I do get anxious when he’s around alcohol. I...
Science Majors are Douches
But only sometimes.
I just don’t understand why people who study science feel the need to hold themselves so superior to other people. My friends who are physics majors or bio majors always remind me how easy my majors are, how it’s no wonder I’m graduating early because anyone could with my majors. And of course, the inevitable “prepare yourself for life in a cardboard...
Day 2: Where I Want To Be in 10 Years
I honestly couldn’t tell you where I want to be next year…so this is a hard question for me to ask. I’d like to have my graduate degree. I’d like to have been in the Peace Corps. I’d like to still be with Kevin. But as for what I’ll be doing, where I’ll be living, who I’ll be? I could not tell you even remotely what I want…
I’d like to...
Day 1
My current relationship…
I am dating Kevin. I am madly, ridiculously in love with Kevin. I rather suspect he might be madly, ridiculously in love with me.
To be honest I think that’s all that’s really important about my relationship right now. I worry that I’m too dependent on him, that I’m too clingy, that we’re going to start spending too much time together...
